Days of Doubt
On a cold rainy New England evening in October I was driving home and the song God Gave Me You by Blake Shelton. Stopped at the red light with the glare of on coming headlights I was singing away.
The person that I’ve been lately, Ain’t who I wanna be, But you stay here right beside me, And watch as the storm blows through, And I need you
’Cause God gave me you for the ups and downs, God gave me you for the days of doubt, And for when I think I lost my way
The words ‘days of doubt’ jumped out so hard I thought I was hit by a frieght train and crossed over to the divine with the chills rushing through my body.
I could have chaulked it up to being cold but with heated seats on high and the heat on in the car it was clearly the universe and my higher self were having a conversation. They were hell bent on making sure I would not disconnect from the words ‘days of doubt’.
The song is about a relationship between two people and always being there no matter what happens in life or how the other person feels. That the other person is their rock in good times and bad.
What if that rock was really your beliefs, your inner guide, your faith or what ever the word is that you want to call it?
What do you hold on to for those days of doubt?
How do you find the courage and strength to continue through the trentches of life?
The screen saver of my cell phone ironically enough is the Strength card from the Tarot De La Nuit deck.
Besides my personal love for this tarot deck the Strength card is what I see every time I look or unlock my phone.
It’s a card filled with courage, confidence, and the ability that when I feel most vulnerable I am actually my strongest.
The divine power that I have that lives inside of me is as courageous and powerful as the ruler of the jungle, the lion.
While the lioness is the hunter and provider her counter part the lion is what brings completeness to the pride.
That’s what lives in all of us. The ability to walk our journey, experiencing all that this world has to offer us.
Knowing that in times of fear, confusions, loss, and doubt that if we just take a few moments to catch our breath; look in the mirror we will see the lion within us.
If we learn to love ourselves unconditionally, honor our emotions, and accept that we are works of art that share a connection with both the present world and the divine universe we can shatter all days of doubt with a simple grin.
As our inner lion stands tall even in the weakest moments. Together we can be the person we are meant to be. We are the ruler of our present moment, our spiritual moments, and the pride we surround ourselves with.