A Journey Within: Entry #1
While out running errands today I made my weekly trip to Wal-mart. Cutting through aisles to go from one side of the store to the other, I ducked through the stationary aisles. A brightly colored book that look like a diary was on the shelf out of place. It reminded me the book on my shelf Zen As F*ck; so naturally I picked it up to read what the cover said and check it out.
‘A Journey Within, An Introspective Activity Journal To Help You Get To Know Yourself Better’. My curiosity peaked without reading the back I opened to the first page. I read the question across the top of the page, followed by lines to journal on and reference to a quote in the lower right corner.
The journal found its way into my cart.
I am choosing to document my journaling in hopes that not only will I dive deep within myself but anyone who reads my journey might find inspiration for themselves and possibly buy this activity journal as well.
January 1 2022
Describe the road you’re currently traveling and how this quote speaks to you and your present situation.
“It’s your road, and yours alone. Others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you.” — Rumi
I have told my friends so many times that I am not able to walk in their shoes or tell them what they should or shouldn’t do but I am willing to walk next to them on their journey. Be there for them, guide them, inspire and encourage them so that they never feel alone.
Currently the road I am on is not one that I thought I would be on again. I do not know how many years it has been since I was an employee for another company. I have been an entrepreneur for more years than I was employed. Now, I find myself employed but still able to work from home.
At first I was angry and resentful that I walked away from my dreams to be an employee; but then I realized that with COVID19 destroying so much around me in the last two years, the tragedy that my son experienced altering his life forever; that right now having a stable and reliable income right now is essential.
“The only journey is the journey within.” — Rainer Maria Rilke
I felt like I was letting myself down, giving up on my vision of completing my PhDs, re-establishing my business and my authoritative position. In reality I was completely wrong.
In choosing to focus on becoming an employee I found that I am the one now that provides benefits to my family, the position has reduced a portion of our cost of living, and allows me to play a valuable part in the financing of our future home.
So, does that mean I failed myself and my dreams by becoming an employee again and having a side hustle to rebuild my business and complete my studies?
I am excited now that my journey has led me here to this very moment, starting a new year with a different sense of courage, strength, and self-wisdom that may be tested at times but I know I have to walk this path. I also know that I am not alone. My circle of friends is expanding and I will find so much along the way.
It is with grace and gratitude that I embrace each day with an open mind, open heart, and trust in the universe.